Good & Bad News...

So Alot has changed since i last written & there's so much to say, it what seems like so little tiime.My Health hasnt been doing so great, ive been going through alot & stress has led me to a flare up. i was hospitalized on Dec. 1st but im out & on some new medication, added to the rest aha my stomach has been hurting alot so they prescribed new pills. i wasnt happy but if it helps then it helps. other than tht ive been pretty good. School is going amazing, i love it and soon it will be over & then college. its right around the corner, im excited. ive been working with the special ed alot i love it , they love me . i have probably been proposed to like a 100 times now aha  so ill make sure you guys are invited to my Weddings. so ive been doing alot lately with my girls.  i got the chance to meet two amazin young ladies at my school , they are foreign exchange students & i love them to death! we are inseparably. Patricia is from Denmark & shes 16 & shes just beautiful inside & out! Elisa is from Germany & shes 17, she knows exactly what to say & can make my day! shes beautiful all around! I LOVE THEM & THEY ARE FAMILY ! <3 so you can say its been going good for me, im living it up still! i love youh all & Remember to Staay Strong & LOOk up towards God he will be here or u through it all! <3 
                    
                                                                                                                      Stasiia ^_^

Touched By An Angel of God

Wow Seems like forever ago since i got the chance to sit down and write. I  forgot how much i've missed it. So much has been going on and  keeping me busy. Great news though my Lupus has been doing great, no flare ups or hospital time for me in the past few years, i'm so blessed. My Medication hasn't changed, no lowering or adding so that's good. gosh its crazy to think in 3 months its actually going to be 3 years having been diagnosed with lupus. i look back and see through all the suffering and pain and hurt i went through, i'm still here with my head held high. i'm conquering over everything i put my mind to, i've always been the one to help others and do anything i can for who ever needs me. Right now i'm in the process of helping special need students, i love it so much. i love being involved, i joined a club at school called Best Buddies, its where we get to hang out and be with the special ed kids at lunch. i am also teaching them sign language during my 6th period. its great, they are so sweet and always have smiles on their faces. it brings me joy to be working with them. My goal on becoming a children's autism teacher is coming so soon, this is my last year of high school and then college.  ive been getting so much help and encouragement and advice from all my teachers, and my family and also from church. i have recently started a new chapter in my life and begun going to church. It has gave me so much more faith and beliefs i enjoy every moment of it. i also am an assistant for the children's ministries i work with an amazing lady, she gives and does so much for everyone around her, her name is Mrs.Linda, im very glad i have got the chance to help her and talk with her. she has a beautiful heart and brings so much joy to this world. being in church has gave me a different perspective on many things and realizing that there's more to life than just living, its also fulfilling your dreams and goals. i Love knowing now that God has a bigger plan for me  than i have ever realized before. When i got diagnosed so many  people were praying for me, some i didn't even know, but those prays helped me recover to who i am today and standing here strong. it was very hard time for me and probably the worst but i want to thank all who stopped and spoke my name to help me get better because they really saved me. I am a person of inspiration, wisdom, faith, and the gift of life. i'm going to be here for everyone who needs help or a lift to rise from a hard time. everything happens for a reason so don't let anything stop you from conquering or achieving something worth time. Timing is Everything. hope to keep updating soon and keep letting you know the new chapters and adventurers in my crazy life.Always Have Faiith In YourSelf! 
                                                                                                                          
                                                                                                         Loove Stasiiia<3

Taken Care of By The Best

       So I know im kind of late but my 18th birthday was on March 5th and it was a very special day for me so for its its another memory to write down and share with my blog! Can you believe im 18 now, gosh Ive came so far in what seems like so little time. but because im the way i am i owe a big thanks to my hospital, they are just a staff to me they are my family! Dr.Shaham, Lizz, Mary Lyn, My social worker Leah, and everyone else in my doctors office of rheumatology, i thank you all for Taking such great care of me and giving my hope. I came into Miller's Children's hospital in 2011 not knowing if i was going to be okay, its like i had doctor after doctor everyday! i was scared, but having doctors and nurses that come in with smiles or coming in to just make sure im doing good made it a little better. it gave me Hope that no matter what i was getting taken care of by people who understand. Every time i have another doctors appointment im so excited to just go and hear im doing okay but i love going because i know my hospital family is there. I love You you all so very much! & i loved my gift they surprised me with for my 18th bday, it brought tears to my eyes that You all came in sang happy birthday and showed more love! So Thanks For Showing me and letting Others Know That im an inspiration because i couldn't have done this without Any of you special Ladies! 

My 2 Years Annversary!& Still Standing Strong

          Can't believe Ive made it 2 years and I'm still standing strong and keeping my hopes up for whatever challenges I'm going to face everyday that comes through. The past 2 years have changed my life and impacted everything i do or ever did, on December 8th 2011 i got diagnosed with Lupus at age 15 and i had no clue what was really going on, i was so confused and lost. Looking back and remembering everyday i spent at Millers Children's Hospital for what seemed like forever, made me who i am today.  People think once something bad happens and changes everything it breaks you but Not Me, lupus made me stronger and made me want to achieve my goals even more than i ever wanted to. My first year was probably the hardest and it took time for me to recover and get into remission. I went to taking medication every other hour throughout the night and more dosages than you could ever imagine and now i only take 9 pills in the morning and 4 at night now and their only 4 different pills. I remember i would wake up with chest and stomach pains so bad every morning, or having to call 911 because i was having a panic attack and feeling as if i was dying inside . I was so tired of hurting and being in  pain i wanted to just give up but i know i had to stay strong because i knew i couldn't give up on myself and my family. So many people were praying and keeping me stay strong. Its like every day was something new, i never knew what was going to happen, whether i would be laughing or crying, or spending the day at home or in a hospital, everyday i was scared whether i showed it or not. & I'm still scared and i still worry because anything could happen. Being in the hospital for a month wasn't something i planned but i was thankful that i got out on Christmas day and got to spend it with my brothers and sister and my family.  was weak and shaky and couldn't do much but coming home to a warm welcoming i would have to say it was the best Christmas ever.  I Remember waking up one morning and Yelling and feeling as if i gave up, i wanted everyone to stop telling me i was going to be ok because i knew it wasn't going to be,  everything was changing my looks, moods, personality and the way others saw me and just showed pity, i kept telling myself my life was over and i was just a broken wing. all i wanted were answers, so i got on my knees and prayed and asked God, "why me, why did you do this to me" i never got a answer but i look back and know why , i got an answer now and believe it not i thank God now for saving MY LIFE. Lupus saved me in every way possible, yeah it put me through hell in the beginning but my life is healthy and better than its ever been. If it wasn't for Lupus i wouldn't be with my Nana and Papa, i wouldn't have been going to high school with my best friend and i wouldn't be here right now writing to you!God Is my Savor! I know his upcoming year is going to be a year to remember for me! So im going to cherish every moment! and live up to my Fullest!

                                                                                                Love Your Lupus Warrior 
                                                                                                              Stasiia =]

My Strength

 

This Song has helped me through alot, it was dedicated to me and its meaning tells it all!  

Back to Catching Up !

          I feel like i haven't blogged in while so i guess its time to catch up on everything. Well I'm back in school after 2 and a half years of freaking homeschooling aha. I love school, learning and experiencing the life of a teenager finally and cherishing my high school years.  My grades are good and I'm making every moment last. I only have 2 more years then I'm done with high school. its really scary to think about, i wish i could've experienced all four years of high school but i guess everything happens for a reason right . I'm just catching up this year and getting my credits so i can graduate with my class of 2015! Tiime is flying by so fast and i don't think I'm ready for the outside world. Soon high school will be over and then college..its a scary to think that its just around the corner. i already know what i want in life, I'm a fighter and I'm not giving up my dream. My dream is to become a children's autism teacher , i will succeed and i won't give up till i do. My life isn't perfect, i don't ask for much, because i have all i need in life. I love my life! ohh did i mention i have a boyfriend. =] yeh i know its scary thing to think about lol He's perfect in my own way, his name is Ethan Purdy, and your probably wondering hows he like, so here it goes. Ethan makes my world 10x better, i can be myself around him , he makes me happy. We met in my first period , English, what caught my eye was his lovely Dimples, and blue eyes! he's so handsome!!!! He's going to impact my life i already know because when he looks at me , its like I'm the only girl in the world. Which makes my world brighter.  So i guess you can say I'm living that fairytale =] …….now to catch up on my beautiful health aha my health couldn't be better, I'm as healthy as i can be right now, no stress, or heartache, no pain. everything is great. I'm finally off those icky sticky steroids so I'm back to my old Stasiia Look! ……getting diagnosed with lupus was a huge change and hard time for me , but now that i look back and see all the pain and hurt i had to go through it made me a stronger person. i look back and feel blessed to still be here and living to the fullest. they always say everything thing happens for  reason  right, at first i never knew my reason for what happened to me. but now that I've grown and become who i am today i think i know why…if hadn't been diagnosed with lupus my life would be so different, it wouldn't be good, getting lupus saved me in a way, i live with my nana and papa and my little sister and I'm doing absolutely amazing, if it wasn't for them idk where i would be or what kind of problems id be into. they saved my life and i can never thank them enough. i love you Nana & Papa!! well before things get more emotional that all i got for ya right now, but I'm back to blogging so try to keep up! :D 

Your Adorkable Lovin Stasiia! <3 

A Life Changing Moment!

   Hey Everyone I wanted to share a little bit of my story with you so you understand why this Walk is important & so maybe you can understand a little bit of im going through. I got diagnosed with lupus (SLE) when i was 15 on December 8th 2011, its been a challenge & has had a dramatic change & its impacted my entire life. Lupus isn't just something you can just let go of & forget about. I have ti take care of myself, watch what i eat ,make sure i take my medication & so much more to add to that list of living! 

    My first year was probably the hardest, getting use to the medication, being in the hospital, & not knowing what was wrong..it killed me inside! I wanted the doctors to tell me that i just a minor Sickness & i would be fine in a few days, but they didn't. when they walked in my room at Queen of valley hospital & the doctor gave me a look like something was seriously wrong, i just remember the tears falling down my face. He told me i had a serious disease that not only wasn't curable but i would have forever, right then & there i just went numb, & thought about everything & everyone! MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, & ABOUT MYSELF! 

    They transferred me to long beach millers children's hospital & i was in there for quite a while, about a month. The doctors kept telling me i was a strong girl & i would get through this just fine, but i thought they were just making me feel good. I had 9 out of the 11 symptoms of lupus, i was strong before i got lupus & i am going to stay strong no matter what, because i know ill be fine. I have everything i need in life, my family, friends & my self confidence! They say everything happens for a reason, i wish i knew the reason for why this happened to me, but i don't. i don't know why bad things happen to people but I'm just hoping something good will come out of it someday! i didn't know how strong i really was until being strong was the only choice i had left. 
    I'm sharing this with you because i want you all to understand that this walk isn't just a walk, its a chance to change lives & not just mine but for anyone who is surviving or losing their lives to Lupus! 
Please Walk With me or donate on this memorable day! it means more then the world to me, Anything matters a penny could change the lives of others! 

1Year Lupus! Annversery!

   So hey you guys guess what ... its officially 1 year now with lupus! It was a year on December 8th! I can't believe I've came so far in a year, i lost weight. I went to 156 lbs to 126 lbs now.  i am so proud of myself! Also, i went from taking 75milligrams of prednisone (steroids) to only 5 milligrams! =] My body was so swollen and big, i was so insecure and just hated it, but i knew in time that the weight would slowly come off as i cut down the prednisone. Even though it took a year and I still have  little puffy cheeks, im going out and having fun and just back to being myself! I remember looking in the mirror and not even recognizing my reflection, it hurt and i sometimes cried myself to sleep. But beyond all that I'm me and i held my head high and didn't look down for anything! & Im doing something about it, i go to the gym 3 days out of the week, i go to alternative school, and i appreciate that even though i was diagnosed with a disease that not only isn't cure-able and I'm  going to have for the rest of my life but i always have to stay strong and never give up. I still break down here and then and ask Why this happened to me, but i know i will always have someone to catch me when i do! I have so much planned ahead of me and dreams i have to achieve. =] The Only thing in life that matters are your dreams, love, and laughing! thats what gets me day by day! always keep your head up and DREAM BIG! LOVE LOTS! & LAUGH LOUD! 
                                             
                                                                      Muahh~ Stasiia =]

Partie tiime!

     Hey you guys & gals I've lost more weight, & lots of it! I've lost a total of 28 lbs. I'm so proud of myself and with the help of the health factor(my gym). It's so great working out and feeling good about myself! I Weigh 128 now, instead a big fat 156! ahhh i've came so far, I'm still trying to get use to it. at first i didn't think i could do it, but i'm so dedicated to it and getting back to myself, i'm got it done!
      Well Anyways last night i had a blast with my little sister & best friend Mireya, we had a slumber party and took over 200 pictures...haha that's a lot! We had so much fun, we tried making fried Oreos but they didn't come out so well because we didn't have a deep fryer! XD Instead we  decided to eat cake & pie, much easier.  Well Last All i got for now, ohhh wait i forgot to tell you guys we decorated my house for christams and i swear christams puked everywhere haha!! ill post pictures of the slumber party and my christmas house!!! 
                                                            Muahh~ Stasiia=]

Glamis 2012 Thanksgiving!

   hey Everyone just got back from Glamis, with the family & best friend! It Was a blast,we were riding morning, afternoon & night rides! i finally got to ride the quad, & i love it, i'm a professional , just kidding i need a little more practice. But my best friend Mireya had the best time ever, it was her first time actually camping. the only thing she didn't really like is the bathroom, and not showering, ahah!! i love her! But my little sister Diane & little cousin Jordan were loving he sand, they had dreadlocks by the time we left. thanksgiving was delicious, i tried antelope for the first time, and i loved it. Well theres not much to say just that i had the time of my life. it was the best glamis trip ever, and it wouldve been even better if my brothers and my mom were there!! love youhh all and i hope everyone had a great thanksgiving and pigged out!! now its time to workk my booty off!!
                                                            Muah~ Stasiia =]

New Newss With Wild Funn!!

            Last Night Was a blast..me & my little sister slept over at my best friends house!! We took over 100 pictures , just being silly and dressing up. it feels good to be finally getting out of the house and doing things i haven't done in a while because of everything i've been through. I'm Doing so much better, i'm going outside, getting up in the morning and actually getting dolled up like i use to. I've made so much progress in the last few months, i couldn't have asked for a better family to support me and help me through everything! We Are heading out to Glamis in 4 days and i can't wait.... driving, riding dunes, spending time with the family, best friend, and cousins!! Did i mention I have lost over 26 lbs. yeah i know I'm Awesome.. haha I Weigh 130 now instead of 156.. my personal trainer, Jeff is Amazing he strives me through the workouts , even when i want to stop and take a breather. I'm blessed that hes my trainer. I HOPE everyone has a  wonderful Thanksgiving!!!

                                                                  Muahh~ Stasiia=]

Sweet Adventures!

A new month to start us off with a brand new journey! My little  sisters birthday was on the 7th, and we had a little get together with the family, it was a blast. Then, we through another party for her at my moms house with a jumper it was also fun! She scored on her birthday this year! Shes the big 10! I got to hang out with my mom, uncle David, & best friend Nick! This Month so far has been great, we have had birthdays, celebrations, and much more to come! We are heading out to Glamis on the 21st for 5 days! its going to be me, my best friend Mireya, my little sister Diane, my grandparents, mom, cousins, and most of my family! its going to be a great thanksgiving! Riding Dunes, eating fat foods, and enjoying being out the house without schoolwork. =] Then, when we get back its hitting the showers, relaxing, & back to the Gym working my booty off! losing weight is my goal in every week day, i'm so thankful to have my great parents stepping up and taking me to the gym every other day! its so much fun spending time with them, because not too many people get that chance with there great grandparents, but i DO! I have an amazing family, and wonderful friends, I'm so blessed. Well thats all i have fro you today but i'll keep updating as more fun and adventures come!
                                                                     Muahh~ Stasiia!

Halloween 2012!!

      So Halloween was amazing, me & my best friend took my little sister tricker treating!! she got a load of candy and scored!! We took her to each house twice haha now that's how you trick or treat the right way! =] My Little sister was A dead bride, my best friend Mireya was a clown, and i was wearing a masquerade mask! we were all stunning and had a great 2012 Halloween! Now we got to wait 366 days till the next Halloween....wahhhh!  I hope everyone had a good Halloween like we did.

                                         Muahh~ Stasiia! =]

Sleep Overr!!

Gunna sleepoverr at my best friends withh my little annoying sister!! =] Woohoo its going to be a funn nightt, GIRL TIIME!!  nails, hair, talking about drama, and much much moree!! 
                                                                  Muahh~Stasiia

Backk To Stasiia!!

hey everyone i lost 2 more lbs when i weighed in at the Health Factor!! Im 134 now wooohoo!! im so proud of myself, im almost back to my normal weight!! Right now my big brother Joesph is coming over to see me , and its been while since we have seen each other!! ahhh i just cant waitt! well imma go stare out my door and wait for him to arrive see ya !!!
                                                  Mauhh~ Stasiia

Americas Family Day 2012

     So guess what everyone, i got invited to a private Event on October 6th at the Santa Monica Pier! Its Hosted by Nick Cannon, he just got recently diagnosed with Lupus in January! So he's Hosting the event for patients with Lupus, other diseases and health issues! Its Going to have prizes, free games, unlimited free rides, photo booth, face painting & much much more!!! Also Red Carpet at 10:30- 11:30! the event starts at 10am and ends at 1pm, im soo excitedd!! I can bring up to 2-3 guests, so im bringing my best friend Mireyaa, my papa and great grandpa Chuck! its going to be a blast !!! My second Lupus event!!! 
                                                       Muahh!~ Stasiia~

Dreams Do Come True!

   So The lupus walk went great!!! i walked all three miles!! 5K HAHA! & my best friend Mireya, my uncle David, my nana, papa, & my little sister all came to support me in my first lupus event!! it was amazing! I met so many people like me, and people who have had lupus for years and years to where ive only had it 11 months & i'm still adjusting ! its been a rough few months but with the support of my family and best friend i've gotten through it all ! i went through 1 month in the hospital, a low sodium diet, Tons of medicine to barley none at all, to puffy cheeks and a swollen body to the point i wouldn't even walk outside with out feeling insecure. i'm so glad i'm out and communicating with the world that i've been missing for what seems like FOREVER! For every patient or person who has lupus, i'm gonna tell you what i've experienced & learned, just don't be insecure about what you look like and don't ever doubt yourself that your not gonna be somebody, because i know i have dreams and i''m sure you do to , so go after them because NO BODY IS PERFECT! 
                       Muahh~ Stasiia~

Little Butterflies!

Me & my sister Were playing MoNoPoLy! Now we decided to write a little together and bond! We are eating ice cream and running NAKED in our minds hahaha just kidding just eating ice cream! Yummy Yum Yum! We have a big event tomorrow & its my Lupus Walk! So excited walking and talking like S.I.S.T.E.R.S!! Made the force be with US! XD 
                 ~ Love Diiane & Stasiia! Muahh ~

Lupus WAlk!!

September 29, 2012Los AngelesWalk for Lupus NowCheck-in: 9:00 AM Walk Starts: 10:00 AM
Exposition Park

Day of event schedule:
9:00 am Check-In Opens
9:45 am Opening Remarks, and Warm-Up
10:00 am Walk begins
11:30 am Closing Remarks

               I am trying to get as many donations as I can, my goal is to raise at least $300. i hope every one can donate something. $1 would even make a difference !The money is going to the Lupus Foundation Of America and its to find a cure for LUPUS! I would appreciate all your help and i would loe it if you walk and support me in this big challenge thats happening in my life!
Thank You And If You Have Further Questions Message Me On Facebook! @ Stasiia Gonzalez ! Or My Email @ stasiagonzalez16@gmail.com 

MAKE A DIFFERENCE WITH ONE STEP!

      

CONTACT:

 Laurie Gray
National Walk Manager
310-617-2835
gray@lupus.org

Losing Weight!

Hey Guess What Everyone Last Friday I lost 5 lbs. I was so thrilled and happy, but it wasn't because i was working out or exercising. It was because I've been really sick and down in bed. But i managed to keep a good diet and get better through out the week! I'm Doing Awesome And today i tried on a pair a pants that were too small for me before but now they fit perfect, I was jumping and running and dancing in Joy!!!  Today At 3pm I'm going to gym again to work my booty off, and succeed to lose more weight and be FIT again!! Can't wait!! 

        Muahh~Stasiia