hey everyone its me checking in again, sorry i haven't posted lately but its been kinda crazy these past few months. But i just got back from my doctors appointment with my doctor, and it went wonderful! Dr.shaham is a great doctor and said my lupus health is in great progress and I'm doing excellent. IM super healthy and nothing is going wrong so thats a relief. they also lowered my medicine again, my steroids are cut down to only 25 milligrams in the morning =] and she completely cut out my carafate pills, now instead of taking medicine morning, afternoon, evening, and bedtime i only take pills in the morning and evening. That made me so happy, and I'm glad the medicine is slowly being lowered. I broke down a little in the doctors visit, i had to talk about how i don't get out much and hang out with my friends and be more outdoors, the reason why i don't do that stuff anymore is because my appearance has changed from the steroids and now i think I'm just very self conscience, and i know i shouldn't be but it just makes me wonder what other people say when they se me. And i get nervous and kinda emotional because i really miss being outdoors and getting out of the house. But my social worker and my nana really helped me through the visit and told me that i shine inside and out with great beauty, and i know if i just be myself my personality is all i need to keep my confidence up and everything will be okay! =] Im going to start writing again and being more like myself instead of the shell i was being. I miss the old me mor than i think i should, because i think I've grown to be so much stronger and look at the world in many more ways ever since i was diagnosed with LUPUS! I also started reading again, i stopped reading when igot diagnosed for some reason and haven't really acknowledged a book in a longtime. BUT now you can't get me away from a book, haha i just finished my book destined it goes to my series of the house of night by p.c cast and kristen cast, and oh my gosh it was great but now i got to way till October for the next book, which really displeases me. and today i finished a book called goddess of the seas, its also by p.c cast and it was a amazing. haha its a new series i just started. My homeschooling is going great, i have good grades and I'm going to be graduating from it pretty SOON! then i wil be a 10th grader, thats kinda scary to think about haha time passes by so fast these days, you gotta make sure you spend every second of it with great effort and love. Well imma go watch a movie and relax for the day, ill be back and tell you more news as soon as i can! See ya
Stasia!!!!
