My 2 Years Annversary!& Still Standing Strong

          Can't believe Ive made it 2 years and I'm still standing strong and keeping my hopes up for whatever challenges I'm going to face everyday that comes through. The past 2 years have changed my life and impacted everything i do or ever did, on December 8th 2011 i got diagnosed with Lupus at age 15 and i had no clue what was really going on, i was so confused and lost. Looking back and remembering everyday i spent at Millers Children's Hospital for what seemed like forever, made me who i am today.  People think once something bad happens and changes everything it breaks you but Not Me, lupus made me stronger and made me want to achieve my goals even more than i ever wanted to. My first year was probably the hardest and it took time for me to recover and get into remission. I went to taking medication every other hour throughout the night and more dosages than you could ever imagine and now i only take 9 pills in the morning and 4 at night now and their only 4 different pills. I remember i would wake up with chest and stomach pains so bad every morning, or having to call 911 because i was having a panic attack and feeling as if i was dying inside . I was so tired of hurting and being in  pain i wanted to just give up but i know i had to stay strong because i knew i couldn't give up on myself and my family. So many people were praying and keeping me stay strong. Its like every day was something new, i never knew what was going to happen, whether i would be laughing or crying, or spending the day at home or in a hospital, everyday i was scared whether i showed it or not. & I'm still scared and i still worry because anything could happen. Being in the hospital for a month wasn't something i planned but i was thankful that i got out on Christmas day and got to spend it with my brothers and sister and my family.  was weak and shaky and couldn't do much but coming home to a warm welcoming i would have to say it was the best Christmas ever.  I Remember waking up one morning and Yelling and feeling as if i gave up, i wanted everyone to stop telling me i was going to be ok because i knew it wasn't going to be,  everything was changing my looks, moods, personality and the way others saw me and just showed pity, i kept telling myself my life was over and i was just a broken wing. all i wanted were answers, so i got on my knees and prayed and asked God, "why me, why did you do this to me" i never got a answer but i look back and know why , i got an answer now and believe it not i thank God now for saving MY LIFE. Lupus saved me in every way possible, yeah it put me through hell in the beginning but my life is healthy and better than its ever been. If it wasn't for Lupus i wouldn't be with my Nana and Papa, i wouldn't have been going to high school with my best friend and i wouldn't be here right now writing to you!God Is my Savor! I know his upcoming year is going to be a year to remember for me! So im going to cherish every moment! and live up to my Fullest!

                                                                                                Love Your Lupus Warrior 
                                                                                                              Stasiia =]

My Strength

 

This Song has helped me through alot, it was dedicated to me and its meaning tells it all!  

Back to Catching Up !

          I feel like i haven't blogged in while so i guess its time to catch up on everything. Well I'm back in school after 2 and a half years of freaking homeschooling aha. I love school, learning and experiencing the life of a teenager finally and cherishing my high school years.  My grades are good and I'm making every moment last. I only have 2 more years then I'm done with high school. its really scary to think about, i wish i could've experienced all four years of high school but i guess everything happens for a reason right . I'm just catching up this year and getting my credits so i can graduate with my class of 2015! Tiime is flying by so fast and i don't think I'm ready for the outside world. Soon high school will be over and then college..its a scary to think that its just around the corner. i already know what i want in life, I'm a fighter and I'm not giving up my dream. My dream is to become a children's autism teacher , i will succeed and i won't give up till i do. My life isn't perfect, i don't ask for much, because i have all i need in life. I love my life! ohh did i mention i have a boyfriend. =] yeh i know its scary thing to think about lol He's perfect in my own way, his name is Ethan Purdy, and your probably wondering hows he like, so here it goes. Ethan makes my world 10x better, i can be myself around him , he makes me happy. We met in my first period , English, what caught my eye was his lovely Dimples, and blue eyes! he's so handsome!!!! He's going to impact my life i already know because when he looks at me , its like I'm the only girl in the world. Which makes my world brighter.  So i guess you can say I'm living that fairytale =] …….now to catch up on my beautiful health aha my health couldn't be better, I'm as healthy as i can be right now, no stress, or heartache, no pain. everything is great. I'm finally off those icky sticky steroids so I'm back to my old Stasiia Look! ……getting diagnosed with lupus was a huge change and hard time for me , but now that i look back and see all the pain and hurt i had to go through it made me a stronger person. i look back and feel blessed to still be here and living to the fullest. they always say everything thing happens for  reason  right, at first i never knew my reason for what happened to me. but now that I've grown and become who i am today i think i know why…if hadn't been diagnosed with lupus my life would be so different, it wouldn't be good, getting lupus saved me in a way, i live with my nana and papa and my little sister and I'm doing absolutely amazing, if it wasn't for them idk where i would be or what kind of problems id be into. they saved my life and i can never thank them enough. i love you Nana & Papa!! well before things get more emotional that all i got for ya right now, but I'm back to blogging so try to keep up! :D 

Your Adorkable Lovin Stasiia! <3 

A Life Changing Moment!

   Hey Everyone I wanted to share a little bit of my story with you so you understand why this Walk is important & so maybe you can understand a little bit of im going through. I got diagnosed with lupus (SLE) when i was 15 on December 8th 2011, its been a challenge & has had a dramatic change & its impacted my entire life. Lupus isn't just something you can just let go of & forget about. I have ti take care of myself, watch what i eat ,make sure i take my medication & so much more to add to that list of living! 

    My first year was probably the hardest, getting use to the medication, being in the hospital, & not knowing what was wrong..it killed me inside! I wanted the doctors to tell me that i just a minor Sickness & i would be fine in a few days, but they didn't. when they walked in my room at Queen of valley hospital & the doctor gave me a look like something was seriously wrong, i just remember the tears falling down my face. He told me i had a serious disease that not only wasn't curable but i would have forever, right then & there i just went numb, & thought about everything & everyone! MY FAMILY, FRIENDS, & ABOUT MYSELF! 

    They transferred me to long beach millers children's hospital & i was in there for quite a while, about a month. The doctors kept telling me i was a strong girl & i would get through this just fine, but i thought they were just making me feel good. I had 9 out of the 11 symptoms of lupus, i was strong before i got lupus & i am going to stay strong no matter what, because i know ill be fine. I have everything i need in life, my family, friends & my self confidence! They say everything happens for a reason, i wish i knew the reason for why this happened to me, but i don't. i don't know why bad things happen to people but I'm just hoping something good will come out of it someday! i didn't know how strong i really was until being strong was the only choice i had left. 
    I'm sharing this with you because i want you all to understand that this walk isn't just a walk, its a chance to change lives & not just mine but for anyone who is surviving or losing their lives to Lupus! 
Please Walk With me or donate on this memorable day! it means more then the world to me, Anything matters a penny could change the lives of others!